Update: I have 3 solid people as references. Minimum.

Just need one more.

my final thought before making most decisions: fuck it

So creating a list of references the night before an interview is a bad idea. I’m literally going to spend all day chasing people and asking them to say nice shit about me.
God, I’m so ill prepared for this. 😭

fil-de-soie:

When I think of my wife, I always think of her head. Like a child, I picture opening her skull, unspooling her brain and sifting through it, trying to catch and pin down her thoughts. What are you thinking, Amy? The question I’ve asked most often during our marriage, if not out loud, if not to the person who could answer. I suppose these questions storm cloud over every marriage: What are you thinking? How are you feeling? Who are you? What have we done to each other? What will we do?
– Gillian Flynn, Gone Girl

fil-de-soie:

When I think of my wife, I always think of her head. Like a child, I picture opening her skull, unspooling her brain and sifting through it, trying to catch and pin down her thoughts. What are you thinking, Amy? The question I’ve asked most often during our marriage, if not out loud, if not to the person who could answer. I suppose these questions storm cloud over every marriage: What are you thinking? How are you feeling? Who are you? What have we done to each other? What will we do?

– Gillian Flynn, Gone Girl

After 24 days, I will be reunited with my Colby bright and early tomorrow morning. It’s been too long. I never want to feel like a 16 year old, having no car sucks ass.